Tammy Kennington
From Hardship to Hope
Season 1-Episode 2 King David's Trauma
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Season 1-Episode 2 King David's Trauma

And What It Has to Do With You

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Show Notes

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Do you long for hope amid mental, emotional, or relational struggles?

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Join life coach,

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author,

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and trauma survivor Tammy Kennington on From Hardship to Hope,

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the podcast for Christian women navigating the intersection of motherhood,

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mental health,

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and matters of faith.

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If you need biblical support, encouragement, and actionable tips, this show is for you.

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In today's episode, we'll discuss King David's trauma and what it has to do with you.

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I grew up with a giant in my life.

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He represents the trauma that's tracked my steps from childhood into adulthood.

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And I'm guessing that if you've suffered abuse,

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whether as a child or adult,

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that you too have a giant or two of your own.

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My giant,

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as I said,

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was my stepfather,

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a six-foot-four former Marine with a tattoo of a bulldog on his upper arm.

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and a handlebar mustache.

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Prone to drunkenness,

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he would crash through the door of our trailer,

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shouting curses and swearing and asking,

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where are those kids?

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I never wanted to be their father anyway.

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You see,

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my stepfather had adopted my brother and I shortly after my parents divorced and my

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mom remarried.

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And it wasn't long before his true colors showed, before carousing became

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a regular habit.

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And beatings became part of what my brother and I witnessed night upon night as our

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mother cowered on the floor,

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battered and bruised.

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But not only that, this stepfather threatened us with violence and we feared him greatly.

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And he would sneak into my bedroom night after night and commit unholy acts

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Well, this giant of mine and the giants in your lives will stand in front of God.

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They will face him and there will be justice,

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whether or not it happens here on this earth or in the world that's to come.

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But this story always reminds me,

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my story reminds me a bit of David and Goliath because I was just this young child

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and teen

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trying to stand up to a giant in whose presence I absolutely crouched in fear.

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He twisted my stomach in knots.

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I'm guessing you probably experienced that.

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And I struggled between loving and hating him.

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I wanted to love him because he was the man representing fatherhood in my life.

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But at the same time, he did horrible things.

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It was so confusing.

And this giant, Goliath, was almost 10 feet tall, larger than life.

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And David was just a pubescent boy going to the battlefield, intending to give his brothers food.

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But instead, he ended up fighting this man, going against Goliath, because Goliath had mocked God.

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He had mocked the Israelite troops.

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David was intent upon becoming a victor,

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he wasn't going to allow the giant in his life to have victory over those who

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believed in the Lord.

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And that's how I like to look at my trauma.

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You see, for the longest time, I held God responsible for the unholy acts of an unholy man.

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And I know just like Goliath,

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My stepfather did not hold either men or women or children in any sort of regard,

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and he certainly didn't have any regard for the Lord or fear of him.

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But I refuse to give the enemy the ability to shut off any opportunity for

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spiritual relationship with my father in heaven because of the sin committed

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against me at the hands of that giant.

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So we as survivors have a battlefield of our own and we can make a decision.

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Are we going to agree with the enemy that God is incapable of moving,

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that the enemy is greater than the one who sits in heaven?

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We know the truth.

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He who is in us is greater than He who is in the world.

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This leads me to

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a story of the 12 disciples and Jesus.

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They too struggled with Christ's identity.

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They struggled to understand his goodness,

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his mercy,

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his love,

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his compassion,

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even though they witnessed healing miracle upon healing miracle,

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the lame walking,

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the blind seeing,

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the dead rising.

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One day Jesus turned to his disciples and asked them, who do you say that I am?

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Some of them responded, some say you're Elijah.

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Some say John the Baptist.

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And again, he said, Who do you say that I am?

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And Simon Peter looked at him and said, you are Jesus Christ, the Lord.

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He knew Jesus was the Messiah.

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And that is the same person who has loved us from the beginning of our lives and

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even before,

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from the time of our conception.

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And he does have good things planned for us.

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So when we can hold to who Christ's true identity is,

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refute the lies of the enemy,

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then we'll start to tear down that giant in our lives.

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The giant represented by one or more individuals.

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who thrust all of that trauma into our lives we can conquer because you see god is

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not a God with a little g he is a God who is all-powerful, almighty, and who is able

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to do anything that we ask or imagine—even more than we ask or imagine.

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I sometimes wonder if David's trauma drove him to his knees.

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Not only did he have this battle in which he conquered the giant, but he was the least of his family.

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He was the shepherd boy who was discarded as not being important enough to summon

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when the priest Samuel came to anoint one of the young men as king.

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He was overlooked.

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He suffered as a refugee.

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He suffered as he ran from Saul, his enemy, who wanted to kill him for years.

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He hid in caves.

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He was in battle upon battle.

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He was distraught when one of his sons, Amnon, sexually assaulted his daughter, Tamar.

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He suffered and grieved the loss of three sons,

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an infant,

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Amnon,

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and the brother who killed him,

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Absalom.

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He rescued two wives from kidnapping.

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David's life was littered with trauma.

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But we can see in Scripture,

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particularly in the Psalms,

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that David,

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who's known as the “man after God's heart”,

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turned to God in every situation of his life.

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He shared his despair, his depression, his discouragement.

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He praised God.

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despite it all, and is just an incredible model of hope for us.

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Not only that, but God weaved hope throughout David's life.

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For someone who went from shepherd to king, rags to riches, there was a lot of suffering.

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But that suffering was also accompanied by great joy.

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That's the odd thing about life.

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We can have joy and suffering

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and one doesn't negate the other.

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But the two-bit shepherd received a holy blessing, an anointing as king.

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God promised him an eternal home.

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And we see David's reflection on that in Psalm 23.

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God also comforted him with his presence.

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He comforted him with a wise wife named Abigail.

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God surrounded him with children.

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So like David,

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I don't want to miss God's mercy,

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his love for me,

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because I can see when I step back from the quilt of my life,

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I can see those threads of hope woven throughout.

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And some of them shimmer less brightly than others.

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Some

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are difficult to see, and I have to peer closely.

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But if I think about it,

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I remember the pastor who spoke encouragement into my life,

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the basketball coach who believed that I could do good things,

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that I could accomplish,

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not because I was a good athlete,

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because I really wasn't,

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but because he cared about kids.

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He put an English teacher in my life who knew me from the time I was a little girl

and who told me that I could do things with my writing.

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She believed in me.

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God placed people in my life to speak hope into my heart, to speak truth about who Christ is.

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And I wonder who those people were in your life.

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Where were those threads of hope that you experienced?

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We know that

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that trauma leads to a broken heart.

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And scripture tells us that God is close to the brokenhearted, that he binds up our wounds.

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And that's where we can find our greatest comfort.

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When we turn to him like David did,

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we can see so much transformation in everything from our health to our heart to

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to our emotional security, to our eternal salvation.

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So that's my encouragement to you today.

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Not only that you would take your big T trauma to the Lord,

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but those smaller traumas that now follow behind,

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the depression,

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the shame,

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the self-loathing,

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the fear,

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the anxiety,

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all of those things that are smaller representations

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of the larger giant in our lives, the smaller giants that track our steps.

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We can take those to our Father who is able to sanctify,

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to alter and transform and radically change that which the enemy intended for evil

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and turn it to good.

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I'd like to let you know about one wonderful resource written by a woman named Crystal Sutherland.

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It's called The Journey to Heal, Seven Essential Steps of Recovery.

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And I'll link to it in our show notes.

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And for your actionable tip today, I recommend you create a self-care kit.

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I found some great photo boxes at Hobby Lobby.

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They're really pretty, but you could choose a storage box, a shoe box, anything that you want.

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And in that box, in that

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Self-care kit,

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you can include things such as notes from people who love you,

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pictures of people that are meaningful,

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events that were meaningful to you,

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things that will encourage your heart,

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favorite scriptures.

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You could create a list of your favorite healing worship songs,

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perhaps a journal for journaling when you're struggling with all the emotions that

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come with surviving trauma.

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Maybe some chocolate because that can boost serotonin.

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So many different things you can include in a self-care kit.

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I'll create a list and post it as a downloadable for you in these show notes.

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But this week,

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why don't you run to the store,

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go to your Hobby Lobby or dig in your closet,

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find a box and start collecting things that will be an encouragement to you.

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when you're struggling with the smaller giants that are left from that trauma.

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And today, if I could just end with a prayer for you.

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Father, we come to you today struggling with all of the giants of our past, Lord.

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God, we know that you can enable us to conquer the giant just as you enabled David.

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And even though our giant may no longer be in front of us,

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Father, we ask for spiritual healing.

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We ask for a spiritual conquering.

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Lord,

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we ask for healing in all of the wounded places of our heart and soul and mind,

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that you,

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Lord,

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would soothe us with the balm of Gilead,

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that your presence would calm us,

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and that we would turn to you.

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We would not allow the enemy to have a final victory,

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but we would cling to the identity of who you are,

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a good God,

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who sent his son,

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Lord,

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to sacrifice his life for ours,

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that we might have eternal and abundant joy and peace in the kingdom to come.

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Because we know on that day when we enter your presence once and for all,

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that you will wipe away every tear from our eyes and these things will all fade.

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So, Lord, we just come to you asking for your mercy today.

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I pray your blessing for each woman listening.

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In your name we pray.

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Amen.

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Thank you so much for listening to From Hardship to Hope.

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You can find the show notes for this episode, including links at TammyKennington.substack.

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And if this show was an encouragement to you or you believe it will encourage

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someone else,

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Peace and grace to you.

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You can find the show notes for this episode, including links at TammyKennington.substack.

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And if this show was an encouragement to you or you believe it will encourage

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someone else,

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would you share it?

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And while you're at it, why not subscribe?

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Peace and grace to you.

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If you missed the first podcast episode, Hope for Those Who Live with PTSD/CPTSD, you can find it here.

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